a brief 2018 Recap, in my perspective
Alright. so I figure it's been a while. Here's a little update.
I finished my second year of school, going on to the third. I picked up the book that I have been trying to finish since 8th grade, but put it down again to pick up The Fault In Our Stars. It's a good one, and I recommend it. Even though the story is tragic, it's still a nice escape. I have two other books in line, 1984 and Tuesdays with Morrie, but god knows when I'll come around to read, let alone finish, those.
The country is more broken than I remember. Maybe it's always been like this, but somewhere I doubt that. School shootings have been more inevitable in other schools and my own, putting an evil power in a kid's messed-up mind taking lives and joy away from unquantifiable souls. I don't know what's wrong with them, maybe it's because nobody cared for them so they're taking it out on innocent people. I don't know. I just know that it's getting scarier, and I'm feeling less safe.
A few weeks ago, before the last day of school, we had a lockdown drill. Nobody knew it was happening, not even the teachers. My teacher, slightly confused, told us to go underneath the desk adjacent to the door and just wait. I started to panic a bit. I was breathing heavy, and I started to pray. I said in my head the two lines that I knew from a prayer, and said it over and over again in hopes for this to be a drill. But, I didn't know if it was. I was truly worried. I knew I needed to make it out alive no matter what because god knows what would happen to my family if I didn't. I freaked out like I never had, more than I had in other traumatic events in my life. I started to make a game plan for what to do if the shooter had come to our door, even though I hadn't heard a single footstep. Somewhere in my mind, I thought they were coming. After 3 minutes of me sweating and breathing slightly faster than I normally do, the announcements came back on. The Principal told the school that he was happy with everyone in the drill and we could continue with class.
Had I known that this was just a normal drill that the faculty somehow forgot to tell our teachers, I wouldn't have freaked out the way I did. I actually don't know if that's right. We've had 4 drills not including the bomb drills and fire drills that we have had to do since the Parkland Shooting on February 14th (May they all rest in peace). We've been preparing for the possibility because we all know that it feels like it is inevitable. It's been happening everywhere, how could I not be terrified?
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In other news, North Korea agreed to stop testing nukes in a recent summit with President Trump and North Korean Leader/Dictator (whatever you want to call him) Kim Jong Un. Thank god for that. I was feeling worried for months, but I am glad that is over. For a while, it felt that we were about to enter war again, which is not great for those who live near the nations capital, and other big areas that would be a prime nuke site.
...
Happy, let's find some happy news. Hmm. Wow, it shouldn't be that hard. Ok. Oh! I am currently on a summer break. I am enjoying it so far, despite the lovely summer assignments I have received. But, it's good. Just catching up on some reading, and horrible movies (such as Midnight Sun, if you want a good time making fun of a movie that sucks, this could just be it). I also want to catch up on some GOOD movies, I don't want to Midnight Sun my way through summer. I'm also starting SAT prep, at a great place, and I hope to be over with it by this summer. So, I'll work hard. Luckily I enjoy school, and things related to it, so it won't be unbearable. I'm kind of looking forward to it.
....
I also want to use this summer for myself. To be in tune with myself again. Because somewhere between winter and now, I lost an identity that I had known a year back. I'm hoping to regain that.
...
But, yes that is it for now. considering that it is summer, I might blog a bit more to, if I'm even that lucky, one person who reads this. And to the one person, thank you so so much. I just checked my stats for who reads this, the stats generator thing seems to have completely broken from the lack of any human being going on this site. So, if one person even finds this or reads this, please refer it to another person. Or is that not right. I don't know. I want people to find my stuff and read it and like it, but I also don't want me to be so thirsty to have them here. Well, i don't know. If you find someone who might even remotely like my stuff, then please spread the word so I can get more people who like this to have a spot to read this. Love you and thank you ;).
xoxo,
Gossip Girl
Lol, so kidding.
That was lame, goodbye.
I finished my second year of school, going on to the third. I picked up the book that I have been trying to finish since 8th grade, but put it down again to pick up The Fault In Our Stars. It's a good one, and I recommend it. Even though the story is tragic, it's still a nice escape. I have two other books in line, 1984 and Tuesdays with Morrie, but god knows when I'll come around to read, let alone finish, those.
The country is more broken than I remember. Maybe it's always been like this, but somewhere I doubt that. School shootings have been more inevitable in other schools and my own, putting an evil power in a kid's messed-up mind taking lives and joy away from unquantifiable souls. I don't know what's wrong with them, maybe it's because nobody cared for them so they're taking it out on innocent people. I don't know. I just know that it's getting scarier, and I'm feeling less safe.
A few weeks ago, before the last day of school, we had a lockdown drill. Nobody knew it was happening, not even the teachers. My teacher, slightly confused, told us to go underneath the desk adjacent to the door and just wait. I started to panic a bit. I was breathing heavy, and I started to pray. I said in my head the two lines that I knew from a prayer, and said it over and over again in hopes for this to be a drill. But, I didn't know if it was. I was truly worried. I knew I needed to make it out alive no matter what because god knows what would happen to my family if I didn't. I freaked out like I never had, more than I had in other traumatic events in my life. I started to make a game plan for what to do if the shooter had come to our door, even though I hadn't heard a single footstep. Somewhere in my mind, I thought they were coming. After 3 minutes of me sweating and breathing slightly faster than I normally do, the announcements came back on. The Principal told the school that he was happy with everyone in the drill and we could continue with class.
Had I known that this was just a normal drill that the faculty somehow forgot to tell our teachers, I wouldn't have freaked out the way I did. I actually don't know if that's right. We've had 4 drills not including the bomb drills and fire drills that we have had to do since the Parkland Shooting on February 14th (May they all rest in peace). We've been preparing for the possibility because we all know that it feels like it is inevitable. It's been happening everywhere, how could I not be terrified?
...
In other news, North Korea agreed to stop testing nukes in a recent summit with President Trump and North Korean Leader/Dictator (whatever you want to call him) Kim Jong Un. Thank god for that. I was feeling worried for months, but I am glad that is over. For a while, it felt that we were about to enter war again, which is not great for those who live near the nations capital, and other big areas that would be a prime nuke site.
...
Happy, let's find some happy news. Hmm. Wow, it shouldn't be that hard. Ok. Oh! I am currently on a summer break. I am enjoying it so far, despite the lovely summer assignments I have received. But, it's good. Just catching up on some reading, and horrible movies (such as Midnight Sun, if you want a good time making fun of a movie that sucks, this could just be it). I also want to catch up on some GOOD movies, I don't want to Midnight Sun my way through summer. I'm also starting SAT prep, at a great place, and I hope to be over with it by this summer. So, I'll work hard. Luckily I enjoy school, and things related to it, so it won't be unbearable. I'm kind of looking forward to it.
....
I also want to use this summer for myself. To be in tune with myself again. Because somewhere between winter and now, I lost an identity that I had known a year back. I'm hoping to regain that.
...
But, yes that is it for now. considering that it is summer, I might blog a bit more to, if I'm even that lucky, one person who reads this. And to the one person, thank you so so much. I just checked my stats for who reads this, the stats generator thing seems to have completely broken from the lack of any human being going on this site. So, if one person even finds this or reads this, please refer it to another person. Or is that not right. I don't know. I want people to find my stuff and read it and like it, but I also don't want me to be so thirsty to have them here. Well, i don't know. If you find someone who might even remotely like my stuff, then please spread the word so I can get more people who like this to have a spot to read this. Love you and thank you ;).
xoxo,
Gossip Girl
Lol, so kidding.
That was lame, goodbye.
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